Times Flies...

I can't believe that I'm almost at the end of my 4th week here.

The time has past so quickly - but that's got to be a good thing.

I'm enjoying work, despite the rushing around, longer hours and more stress. I've always one to get pretty stressed out by things, to let things get on top of me - but for some strange reason I seem to be enjoying, even thriving on the paster pace. I'm learning new things every day and it's great to be doing a job that I actually find interesting. I'm meeting new and interesting people, some real 'characters' on occasion and its all making me feel more confident that we've made the right decision and that this move is the right thing to do.

Obviously life would be easier if I had Mike here. But the one positive that has come out of us being apart for this time is that I know with all my heart that he's the only man for me.

Uhoh! Mushy stuff alert - quick...grab a bucket!

I'm sure I'm driving my parents nuts at the moment mind you. The first two weeks it was great being back home - in fact, its still being great back home and I couldn't have done this without my parents love and support. But after 10 years of independence, its difficult to settle in to someone else routine. I'm looking forward to getting into our own wee cottage. I'm sure my parents will appreciate having their space back as well!!

Oh well - I just wanted to post an update. Sorry I haven't had the time to visit the blogs I normally do but once things get back to 'normal - well, as normal as they can be with me! I'll be back with a vengence - you won't be able to get rid of me!

Life Goes On...

Well - these past two weeks or so have past in a blur... I can't believe I'm in the middle of my third week here already. How times flies and all that!

I feel like I'm settling in reasonably well in my new job. It's busy...frantic even... and I'm working longer hours than I did in my previous job. My boss is a whirlwind...and probably the most disorganised person in the world but she's really nice and seems to be warming to me, slowly but surely. I guess these things take time don't they? People need to get to know each other before things finally click. The work is fascinating and I can honestly say that, although I'm rushed off my feet and hardly have time to breath, I'm enjoying myself. I'm learning new things and having new experiences. And that's always a good thing as far as I'm concerned.

I spent the weekend with Mike down in Kirkcaldy. It was great to see him. Seeing him standing on the platform as the train pulled in, waiting for me, made me feel so much better. And being able to throw my arms around him again was the most amazing feeling. Don't worry - I won't go into that mushy stuff too much. But needless to say I've missed him like crazy. I feel like there's a part of me missing when he's not around.

Spending the weekend with Mike and the moggies was wonderful - but I guess in a way it's made it all the harder to leave him and come back up to Elgin with out him. Mike is a massive and very important part of my life and I guess we take people for granted when they're there every day. It's only when we're faced with life without them that we truly realise how much we depend on them...how much we love them.

My friend Fiona is going through a tough time at the moment. She coping magnificently with the death of a close family member... I just wish I was there to help her get through this difficult time. Positive and healing thoughts are definetely needed for her and her family.

Well - I've waffled enough for now. Life goes on... things change... and although it's hard at first I guess I'm beginning to realise that these tough patches only make the good times seem even better.

What a week!

Well, I'm at the end of my first full week back in the Elgin area. And WOW! what a week!

My new job is hectic, and that's putting it mildly! I'm really going to have my work cut out for me and I'm not ashamed to admit that on Monday, having left work for a lunch break, I was a complete panicking mess. In all honesty I really didn't want to go back - I sat in the car with my Mum and sobbed, convinced that I'd made a horrible mistake. Thankfully Mum was there to calm me down - usually it's Mike's job but with him being so far away I'm just grateful that I've got such a wonderful Mum to help me through these wobbly moments. I did go back and that afternoon was slightly better. Over the course of this last week I really feel that I've grounded myself in the job. It's very busy, there are long hours (I've worked over 44 this week!) and my boss couldn't organise her way out of a wet paperbag, bless her; but I really feel that I've got the basics to start from. From here on in it'll be a chance to really make the job mine and get to grips with it all.

I'm missing Mike desperately. It's so strange being so far away. I'm missing his cuddles the most... the way he can just wrap his arms around me and make everything feel so much better. Mike isn't much of a talker and he keeps his emotions pretty well wrapped up. But he just has this way of looking at me with those lovely big blue eyes of his and silently telling me that everything is fine. Sounds daft I know - but it's true.

I miss Milo and Smudge too. Strange how used to get to having an animal around. My two babies are as much a part of our wee family as anyone else and I'm missing having them around. I keep wondering what's missing when I wake up and then I suddenly realise it's the weight of Milo lying at the end of the bed that isn't there. Or the sound of Smudge purring.

I'm keeping in touch with Fee by text and through the computer. I'm terrible at phoning mind you - but that'll probably be a relief eh Fee... don't think you're one for blethering away on the phone anyway are you? Thanks for what you said in your blog by the way - oh, and anyone who hasn't checked out Fiona's blog... the link is over there on the right! :o) Missing you like mad honey - but I'll see you next weekend. We can have a good catch up then eh?

Anyway - the week has flown by. Hopefully the other weeks will move along just as quick and I can be with Mike again.

A New Start

So - I'm here... this is it... tomorrow I start my new job...I'm living back in the Elgin area with my parents at the moment until Mike moves up in October and we can move into our new cottage.

In all honesty - I'm pooping my pants!

It hit me earlier today, when Mike and Fiona (who was a complete angel and drove us up here this afternoon) got back in the car to head back to Kirkcaldy with out me. I'm not shy to admit that I completely fell to pieces and it was a good job Mike had the strength to get in that car and drive away... because I found it very difficult to physically let go and him and say goodbye.

I know it's going to be a great move for us. We'll be living in a beautiful area of the world, I've got a better job, I'm closer to my family and we're going to have the life we've always dreamed of. But right now it feels like a million miles away and at the moment I can't think about more than one day at a time.

Breath Rachel... take it as it comes... breath...

Mike and I haven't been apart for more than a couple of days for nearly 5 years - I can't imagine going to bed every night without having him there for a cuddle - or simply having him there to talk to whenever I want. But hopefully the next six weeks will pass quickly and we'll be together again, living in our new home and sharing a whole load of new experiences together.

My friend Fiona drove me up this afternoon, driving a 350 mile round trip to make sure I got here safely. Thank you Fee - I don't know what I'd do without you. You have to be one of the most generous and wonderful people I've ever met - and no matter where I am in the world or how far apart we seem to be... I'll always love you heaps! Thank you.

Well, I think I'll call it a night. I'm going to get into my PJs, try to relax and get ready for a new start tomorrow.

Wish me luck!