A New Start

So - I'm here... this is it... tomorrow I start my new job...I'm living back in the Elgin area with my parents at the moment until Mike moves up in October and we can move into our new cottage.

In all honesty - I'm pooping my pants!

It hit me earlier today, when Mike and Fiona (who was a complete angel and drove us up here this afternoon) got back in the car to head back to Kirkcaldy with out me. I'm not shy to admit that I completely fell to pieces and it was a good job Mike had the strength to get in that car and drive away... because I found it very difficult to physically let go and him and say goodbye.

I know it's going to be a great move for us. We'll be living in a beautiful area of the world, I've got a better job, I'm closer to my family and we're going to have the life we've always dreamed of. But right now it feels like a million miles away and at the moment I can't think about more than one day at a time.

Breath Rachel... take it as it comes... breath...

Mike and I haven't been apart for more than a couple of days for nearly 5 years - I can't imagine going to bed every night without having him there for a cuddle - or simply having him there to talk to whenever I want. But hopefully the next six weeks will pass quickly and we'll be together again, living in our new home and sharing a whole load of new experiences together.

My friend Fiona drove me up this afternoon, driving a 350 mile round trip to make sure I got here safely. Thank you Fee - I don't know what I'd do without you. You have to be one of the most generous and wonderful people I've ever met - and no matter where I am in the world or how far apart we seem to be... I'll always love you heaps! Thank you.

Well, I think I'll call it a night. I'm going to get into my PJs, try to relax and get ready for a new start tomorrow.

Wish me luck!